Thursday, October 19, 2017

Entwined Where BDSM Dreams Become Reality...

How & Why was Entwined Dreams born?

The series came from my need to counter some invalidation I've seen, heard of and experienced by getting back to the basics of the practice and lifestyle of BDSM. I wanted to show there are infinite ways to reach subspace (& topspace) and each person has unique needs. (Also I wanted to explore the edges)

The Entwined BDSM club is something that exists only in my mind. It is my fantasy of what a BDSM club could/should be... Entwined is a network of nationwide BDSM clubs run by subs & their Doms. There's a focus on education, safety and growth.

The clubs I've visited in the past have been-let's say-less than lush. So I decided to posh it up and inject luxury I could only dream of experiencing. Each club has a different atmosphere.

This video shows one version of what an underground (literally) club might look like.



Here's are the first two book in Entwined Dreams:

 

Rejected. Heartbroken. Devastated.

Zack Davis wanted to serve only one man, Andrew Nikeman. He was denied because Andrew thought he was too young and because their brothers were together. So Zack crushed his submissive tendencies and focused on being the perfect Dom, giving every sub he played with something he couldn’t have.

After years of denying his submissive side, Entwined’s charity auction “Are you Dom Enough to be a sub?” gives Zack an excuse to get a little of what he’s always craved.

Andrew doesn’t know when his infatuation turned into more, but it kills him to see Zack with a constant parade of submissives. He’d refused to jeopardize his brother’s relationship or become Zack’s regret; however, Zack isn’t a kid anymore, and his brother’s relationship is unbreakable. Now Zack’s popularity and success as a Dom might ruin Andrew’s dreams of collaring him, but he can’t wait any longer to confess his feelings or he risks losing the man he loves forever. 


 

An abusive Dom robbed Orion Gordon of his love of BDSM, destroying his confidence and leaving him unsure he’ll ever find peace through submission to another. Still, deep inside, his longing continues.
Marcus Sadir loves Hunter Dixon, yet can’t be the one thing Hunter truly desires: a sub to control. And Hunter can’t find satisfaction in the sadistic aspects of the BDSM lifestyle, while Marcus thrives on inflicting and sharing pain. When Marcus convinces Hunter they should find a third on a permanent basis, they discover Orion might be the key to bridging their differences and joining them on a deeper level.
But they must help Orion move past his trauma enough for him to enjoy new facets of BDSM and kink again. Their journey toward becoming whole—together—won’t be without challenges. Can Orion trust enough to try again?


Thursday, October 12, 2017

How was Secured and Free born?



Orion Gordon, one of Secured and Free’s main characters had a secondary part in Lock and Key. One of my critique partners (Danny Brüggemann) hadn’t even finished reading the beta read for Lock and Key and she private messaged me on Facebook. 

Danny: “So Orion’s story is next.”
Z: (my head screamed YES, but that wasn’t the original order of the story) Um, no. Why?
Danny: His story is next. 
Z: … No, actually Xander’s—
Danny: Orion gets a happy ending, so who is it? Marcus? Although what about Hunter? (she completely ignored my attempts at denials) Marcus? It’s Marcus, right? But Hunter…
Z: … (the plot bunny threw a lightning bolt at my head) Damn you!
Danny: Why not—
Z: Don’t say it. I know…
Danny: (LOL) Orion does need a village just ask Xander. 
Z: (growled & pouted)

Then I did what was destined to be and wrote Securedand Free.
And that’s how my story priority order changed, and how Orion got his happily ever after in book two of Entwined Dreams

I want to share some excerpts from Lockand Key as well as Secured and Free. I think this will help remind you where his path took him.

This first snippet is when meet Orion in Chapter 2 of Lock and Key (Entwined Dreams #1). Since the main character, Zack Davis is 18 years old I show him dipping his toes into the BDSM pond. Chapter 2 is a BDSM 101 class and basic demonstration.

Excerpt of Lock and Key:
Once the chuckles and laughter died down, Jason continued. “As you can see, we are pretty relaxed here. Still, Orion and I have talked about what we’ll do tonight. We both worked out the expectations of this scene. He’s shared with me his limits, and I’ve shared mine.”

A murmur raced through the crowd.

Jason grinned. “Ah, I see. You don’t think someone in the Dominant role has limits or should explain those to the sub?”

No one said anything.

“Orion?”

Orion shrugged and said, “I wanted more intensity with the impact play than Master Jason was willing to give me. He told me his limits, and I need to respect them or find a new play partner.”

Zack understood that kind of raw had-to-have-it need.

Jason nodded. “Neither partner should be forced into a place they’re not comfortable in. I’m not saying limits shouldn’t be pushed and boundaries can’t be adjusted, but there’s a process… a negotiation for that.”

Orion frowned but didn’t say more.


Later on, in Book #1 we find out Orion’s need for rougher play had gotten out of hand.

Excerpt from Lock and Key:
There was a brief silence, which Tony broke. “I want to continue discussing abuse versus discipline.” Everyone glanced around them until all gazes fell on Orion Gordon.

Zack had never played much with the researcher because he couldn’t meet Orion’s need for pain. Though they’d had plenty of discussions about the progress being made in cancer research.

Fuck, no. Zack did recall he’d noticed Orion with more than one blackened eye; the guy had said it was a work-related injury. Shit! Today the guy sported two black eyes, a swollen cheek, and a split lip. How had he missed the way Orion flinched when someone made quick movements around him?

Orion shrugged but wouldn’t meet anyone’s stare. “I don’t see the big deal. They’re mostly the same thing.”

What? He couldn’t be serious. Zack had to say something.

“Discipline is what a submissive submits to in order to learn, grow, make atonement, or find subspace. Abuse is nonconsensual and serves no purpose other than to vent anger or torment another in a non-agreed-upon way.”

When Orion didn’t look at Zack, he continued, “Even if you agreed to discipline, you didn’t agree to the willful disregard of your personal welfare.”

There was silence until someone across the room said, “Safe, sane, and consensual, right?”

“Or RACK.” Zack threw the term out there.

Someone new asked, “What’s RACK?”

Joey Junior cleared his throat and got everyone’s attention. “Risk-Awareness and Consensual Kink. Nothing is completely safe. Driving a car isn’t completely safe, but we have seat belts and airbags. It’s about being aware of the risks and trying to minimize the potential issues.”

Tony asked, “I never understood why consensual kink instead of sane?”

“Well, think about it. Do you want someone not in the lifestyle telling you what sane is? Because I’d bet their definition is different than ours. If I give consent to explore breath play, I don’t want someone telling me that I’m insane. That’s between me and my Master.” Joey Junior glanced around the group.

Many gazes drifted back to the man who had everyone’s worry.

Orion peered up with a glint of defiance. “What if the play was consensual?”

“Was it?” Zack doubted Orion had given consent.

Orion folded his arms and pressed his lips together, which reopened his lip.

Xander, Orion’s best friend, pulled a tissue from his pocket and dabbed at the blood.

Orion grabbed the tissue and snarled, “Don’t. I’ve got this.”

Zack shook his head. “I find it difficult to imagine a contract or a discussion between a Master and sub, or even a slave, requesting consent to beat someone in the face.”

Tears sprang to Orion’s eyes, and he glanced away from the group.

Zack surveyed the other subs. Shit. Entwined was meant as a safe haven, but it happened even here. He’d never wanted anyone to experience the betrayal and violation he had. “Is this something that happens frequently?”

No one would answer until Sam said, “On occasion. Even with all the members being vetted, a couple Doms who don’t understand power exchange make it through.”

“What happens?” Jesus! Zack dug his fingernails into the chair, but he kept his voice even.

“Usually word gets out, and no one will scene with them, so they vanish.”

“Who did this to you, Orion?” Zack demanded, but the guy stubbornly refused to speak. Well, fuck no. Not happening again.
“Do you want that to happen to someone else? Do you want this guy to hook up with Xander? Or anyone else?” Zack wanted to wring the guy’s neck for protecting someone who needed his ass kicked.

“You know I like it rough.” Orion’s admission dared those around him to say something about it.

“There’s a difference between rough and out of control. A Dom should never be out of control. No one should be abused under the guise of BDSM play.”

Xander said, “Orion, don’t make me. You should say who, or I will.” He stroked his friend’s hair.

Orion pressed his lips together into a frown, but ultimately, he coughed up the name. “Dom Henry.”

“That fucking bastard,” one of the subs three seats away from Zack yelled out. “I’d like to explain the difference between discipline and abuse to him.”



Which brings us to the first chapter of Secured and Free. A few months have passed. Orion’s trust has so shaken he can’t even do a light scene.

Chapter 1 Excerpt Secured and Free:
“Cancer!” Orion couldn’t breathe.

Stop! Stop! Can’t be tied!

Everything needed to cease. Squeezing his eyes shut, he called out, “Cancer!”

The ropes vanished from around his wrists as if they had never been there.

It was no good. What kind of submissive was he if surrender was beyond him?

No! Trust. Can’t. No!

Zack spoke to him, but Orion couldn’t piece together the meaning of his words.

Andrew’s deep dominant voice cut through the building terror.

“Orion, I’m wrapping a blanket around you, and then I’m moving us to the platform.”

Blanket. Yes. Hide. No more.

Flat on his back, Orion burrowed into the warmth, hoping it might protect him.

Stupid. Idiot. I’m good for nothing. I can’t even—

Wanting it all to stop, he pressed closer to the body generating heat. The scene ended like it had too often in the recent past. There was a time Orion would have cut out his tongue rather than use a safeword. But now he used the word to make everything end before anything could even start.

“You’re with us. I’m lying next to you.” Zack’s words comforted him. Orion held on as Zack wrapped his arm lightly around Orion’s middle. Andrew stroked his hair. “You’re safe, Orion. Just breathe. Draw air in through your nose and out through your mouth. Inhale and exhale nice and slow.”

Orion gasped.

“Easy. In through your nose and out through your mouth,” Andrew instructed again.

Failed. Again. Don’t deserve to be held and petted. Can’t even breathe right.

The weight of disappointment threatened to bury him further in the abyss. Everything he believed about himself was... a lie. He focused all his energy on catching some air. Following these simple directions was the least he could do.

Inhale. Exhale. Even breaths. There. He had his respiration under control. His heart would slow eventually.

How many times had he been in one of these back rooms of Entwined? Probably countless times since he’d joined the BDSM club right after college. This room was like all the other nonthemed rooms. It was white with a padded platform for various activities. A supply cabinet stood in the corner to assist a Dom who needed to purchase something. Eyehooks decorated the walls at various heights, and it also contained a sofa, a chair, a bench, towels, blankets, and a fridge with water and juice. It had just about everything a Dom or a submissive required to live out their BDSM dreams.

Blinking to clear his vision, Orion muttered, “I thought I’d be able to handle straightforward bondage.”

Damn it. How things had changed. In the past, he’d never sought to play with either of these two men because they weren’t willing to give him the harsh treatment he needed.

Now, look at him. Had they even gotten a chance to secure the first knot on the rope before he called an end to the scene?

Was he that damaged?


Entwined Dreams: Secured and Free Blurb
An abusive Dom robbed Orion Gordon of his love of BDSM, destroying his confidence and leaving him unsure he’ll ever find peace through submission to another. Still, deep inside, his longing continues. 

Marcus Sadir loves Hunter Dixon, yet can’t be the one thing Hunter truly desires: a sub to control. And Hunter can’t find satisfaction in the sadistic aspects of the BDSM lifestyle, while Marcus thrives on inflicting and sharing pain. When Marcus convinces Hunter they should find a third on a permanent basis, they discover Orion might be the key to bridging their differences and joining them on a deeper level. 

But they must help Orion move past his trauma enough for him to enjoy new facets of BDSM and kink again. Their journey toward becoming whole—together—won’t be without challenges. Can Orion trust enough to try again?



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Thursday, October 5, 2017

The Librarian's Rake

Greetings my Pretty ones!

The Librarian's Rake will be released on Oct 25th. It's up for pre-order currently.

It's my first nonyaoified true contemporary romance... and no rakes were harmed in the writing of this book. Though a librarian was debauched and a rake learned happy endings could go beyond a swallow.

Many hugs, Z.


The Librarian’s Rake Blurb
Opposites might attract, but is acting on that attraction wise?
Librarian Tristan Cooper can’t steer clear of sexy, motorcycle-riding bad boy Phillip—the man is hot—but Phillip is bound to and quiet, bookish Tristan boring, like all Tristan’s boyfriends. Tristan yearns to explore his wild side, the part of himself he’s only allowed into his fantasies, and maybe rakish Phillip is just what he needs to feel free.
Sexperienced hairdresser Phillip is more of a believer in happy endings than happily ever afters. Experience has taught him not to hope for more— until he meets sweet, vulnerable Tristan, who seems genuinely interested in his heart. But Phillip can’t trust enough to see himself as a man Tristan might want for more than a night.
With the help of a pair of matchmaking grandfathers, Tristan and Phillip might and the courage to step beyond their comfort zones and discover what has been missing from their lives....

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Thursday, September 28, 2017

The Librarian's Rake


Unlike most of my covers The Librarian's Rake isn't drawn. Since it's a contemporary (a tad less yaoified than usual) I figured I'd try something different.



The Librarian's Rake Blurb: 

Opposites might attract, but is acting on that attraction wise?
Librarian Tristan Cooper can’t steer clear of sexy, motorcycle-riding bad boy Phillip—the man is hot—but Phillip is bound to nd quiet, bookish Tristan boring, like all Tristan’s boyfriends. Tristan yearns to explore his wild side, the part of himself he’s only allowed into his fantasies, and maybe rakish Phillip is just what he needs to feel free.

Sexperienced hairdresser Phillip is more of a believer in happy endings than happily ever afters. Experience has taught him not to hope for more— until he meets sweet, vulnerable Tristan, who seems genuinely interested in his heart. But Phillip can’t trust enough to see himself as a man Tristan might want for more than a night.

With the help of a pair of matchmaking grandfathers, Tristan and Phillip might and the courage to step beyond their comfort zones and discover what has been missing from their lives….

Thursday, September 21, 2017

Love Land South Korea Island

This is an island of South Korea filled with erotic statues allowing honeymooners to understand sex. Enjoy!


Who writes, has two thumbs, and added this to their bucket list?
This author!
Many hugs, Z.

Thursday, September 14, 2017

BDSM littered throughout my work


BDSM

One of the reasons why I write BDSM (other than my own filter and biases) is because I want to validate all expressions of it. There are infinite BDSM needs and countless ways to express them. My characters involved in BDSM are on various parts of the spectrum. 

Let's begin with characters from my second official BDSM novel that was released at the end of May.

Orion: We see him a bit in Lock and Key. Someone abused Orion’s trust during exchanging power. Orion always wanted to play harder and harder his need for the peace subspace gave him was consuming. The violation he experience broke something inside of him, and he’s decided to stop all attempts of BDSM.

Hunter: He’s a dominant with nothing to prove. Though he longs to guide a sub to reach their full potential, his lover is not submissive. They have an open relationship, but doing scenes here and there doesn’t satisfy him anymore.

Marcus:  He likes to refer to himself as a sadist with a side of masochist.  Marcus likes to make it hurt and share in the sensation. He aches to be the sub Hunter needs but that’s just not who he is. Though since he’s polyandrous maybe they can just find a third, someone who can bridge the gap between he and Hunter.





Entwined Dreams: Book Two
An abusive Dom robbed Orion Gordon of his love of BDSM, destroying his confidence and leaving him unsure he’ll ever find peace through submission to another. Still, deep inside, his longing continues.
Marcus Sadir loves Hunter Dixon, yet can’t be the one thing Hunter truly desires: a sub to control. And Hunter can’t find satisfaction in the sadistic aspects of the BDSM lifestyle, while Marcus thrives on inflicting and sharing pain. When Marcus convinces Hunter they should find a third on a permanent basis, they discover Orion might be the key to bridging their differences and joining them on a deeper level.
But they must help Orion move past his trauma enough for him to enjoy new facets of BDSM and kink again. Their journey toward becoming whole—together—won’t be without challenges. Can Orion trust enough to try again?

Buy Links to Secured and Free: ebook     print


 
Andrew Cohen: wants control, to have the order of things reinforced. In Lock and Key, he’s new to exploring BDSM and excited to learn and experiment with partners. His ex refused to explore it with him and held him back from being who he was meant to be so he shies away from coupling up.

Zack Davis: Discovered his interest BDSM early on.  Zack wants the opportunity to prove himself worthy and to be seen. He’s only 18 when the story starts but has known he wanted BDSM to be his world since he was a kid. (Yes, there are people who know at a very early age. I was 4). All his energy is devoted to making his BDSM dreams a reality.

Buy Link for Lock and KeyEbook   Print

 Tied Together



Robin Strider: He’s a sub through and through. Robin has strength and determination and a fierce need to serve others.  He derives much of his sexual satisfaction through the practice.

Josh Strider: He is demi-sexual (must have a connection with the person to feel an attraction) Demi-sexual is a spectrum and Josh is probably on the part where he literally only sees Robin. He has no other sexual preferences just Robin. He dominates Robin because that’s what his lover needs. His enjoyment of dominance is the satisfaction Robin obtains from it.

Buy Link for Tied Together: Amazon

Happy Holidays


Dare: sees BDSM as pure play. Something fun and spicy that gives him a bit of control. There’s no deep need to submit or dominate. Though he does enjoy the subbie connection he felt with Robin in Tied Together… but he doesn’t devote a lot of mental energy to BDSM.


Buy Link for Happy Holidays: Amazon

Zombies Suck

 Cutter: He’s been damaged and hurt by the world. Cutter seeks to give vent to his pain through self-injury.  BDSM as cure! I hear the screams and criticism, but hear me out. BDSM doesn’t necessarily cure anything. HOWEVER it allows the person to stop thinking of an issue and sometimes that mental rest allows them the strength to deal with the problem or think of it in a different way.

Alex: He’s always felt the draw to be a Dominant, but he didn’t feel like one. (Okay, granted this is my commentary that the physical doesn’t have to have anything to do with being dominant or not… though he did go through a secondary transition). He learned, studied and practiced how to exchange power.

Buy Link for Zombies Suck: Amazon


These are just some of the ways my characters find satisfaction in BDSM. I believe all expressions of BDSM are valid. 

Many hugs, 
Z. Allora


Thursday, September 7, 2017

Apps in Secured and Free


Excerpt from Secured and Free w/ Pet App
(Orion is trying to avoid talking about his disastrous night with his best friend and roommate Xander.)
“What’s to tell? Nothing happened.”
Xander shook his head and pulled out his phone. He whispered into it, and Orion got a chirp on his cell.
He glared but opened the message and played the video. A picture of Xander’s sugar glider, Nippet—named after a baby Ewok in Return of the Jedi—started talking to him in a morphed version of Xander’s voice.


video




Excerpt w/ Sad Cat Diary
He clicked Pause on an amusing video and answered his lover’s call. “Hey, Marc.”
He’d been with Marc Sadir for six years, and living with him for ve. They had met at Entwined and fallen hard. Their needs didn’t quite match, so they maintained an open relationship. But that didn’t mean Marc wasn’t everything to Hunter. It simply meant they were realistic, and he didn’t want Marc to accept less.
Marc purred into the phone, “Hiya, sexy. You already at Entwined?”
“Yup. Oh, later remind me to show you the Sad Cat Diary.” He still smiled at the cat’s perspective of a human’s reality.
“Another Facebook find?”
“Yeah, a YouTube video. I just.... It’s funny. You have to see it.” Hunter chuckled again.
“I will…”


Pretties: I want you to see the video. Even if you already have seen the mournful cats it’ll probably still crack you up!




Secured and Free Blurb
An abusive Dom robbed Orion Gordon of his love of BDSM, destroying his confidence and leaving him unsure he’ll ever find peace through submission to another. Still, deep inside, his longing continues. 

Marcus Sadir loves Hunter Dixon, yet can’t be the one thing Hunter truly desires: a sub to control. And Hunter can’t find satisfaction in the sadistic aspects of the BDSM lifestyle, while Marcus thrives on inflicting and sharing pain. When Marcus convinces Hunter they should find a third on a permanent basis, they discover Orion might be the key to bridging their differences and joining them on a deeper level. 

But they must help Orion move past his trauma enough for him to enjoy new facets of BDSM and kink again. Their journey toward becoming whole—together—won’t be without challenges. Can Orion trust enough to try again?

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